Portfolio of Hope

Anorexia, you have controlled me for far too long,

Invalidating everything I have to say,

Night after night, making me go to bed hungry,

Convincing me that I don’t deserve recovery, that I’m not “ill enough.”

And the sad part is, I believed your lies for so long.

It’s heartbreaking to think how much of my life I have wasted trying to please you.

But here’s the thing,

I have come to realise that you will never be pleased.

No matter how many jean sizes I drop,

No matter how many miles I run,

I am never enough for you.

You will never be satisfied.

So, I give up on you.

There’s no space for you in my life anymore.

All you ever do is take and take, giving me nothing back other than pain and sadness.

I now know that it’s time for me to move on, without you.

Slowly but surely, I am breaking out of my shell, the shell that you have had my confined to for far too long.

I am finding my voice.

I am rediscovering myself.

I am learning to live without you.

Anorexia, it’s been one rollercoaster of a journey with you,

And I’m sorry, but I never want to rekindle our relationship.

We are over.

Goodbye anorexia,

Hello life…

2 responses to “Goodbye Anorexia”

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