It will be hard.
Seeing your body changing will be hard.
Ignoring the urges to perform disordered behaviours and routines will be hard.
Recovery is hard, there is no fast-track to it. It takes time and it takes everything you have to keep going, to not give in. But believe me when I say this- recovery is so worth it.
When you are able to go on holiday and eat whatever you want without giving it a second thought, it is worth it.
When you no longer live to eat and exercise, but you exercise and eat to live, that’s when you will know what I mean when I say that recovery is worth it.
There is so much more to life than your eating disorder- so much more of the world that you haven’t yet explored, waiting for you out there.
So, grab life with both hands, commit yourself to recovery and never look back.
Yes it will be hard.
Yes you will probably kick and scream and shout and want to escape the living hell that you feel like you are going through, but it will be worth it in the end.
The anger and resentment will turn into peace- peace with yourself and your body.
You will be able to live your life with the absence of your eating disorder.
Recovery will be hard, but living with your eating disorder for a day longer will be harder.