Portfolio of Hope

The top button

is always left undone

when I sit,

so that when I’m sitting,

I can rest–

properly rest,

my mind too-

an escape from feeling

‘too much’-

too bloated,

too big,

too…

fat.

My entire self-worth tied to how my stomach feels.

Pathetic, really.

Pathetic that I’m more scared of my own flesh

than I am of dying.

-sad but true.