i feel nothing, intensely-
a restriction of the ability to feel-
numbness that seeps into the deepest parts of me,
my fingers ache from the pain as i desperately cling to a sense of hope
that, one day, i will feel something real,
still, i hold on
to the potential of things being different.
it hurts and i’m tired and i just want to let go
i cling on
to the hope.